Today was extremely frustrating for both Dylan and I. He had a pretty good day at school but about an hour after he was home, I could feel things going downhill.
I tried hard to get things moving in a better direction.....we did some spinning but in his mind, I wasn't doing it right today. I have NO clue what that meant since I'm pretty convinced I was doing it exactly like we always do it and when I asked him what I needed to do differently all I got was I needed to do it "right."
Then he wanted me to race monster trucks with me.....and I wasn't lining then up right. I wasn't pushing them right. But when I tried to go do anything else in the house, he would meltdown completely...throwing toys, hitting, punching.
The afternoon continued like that and once we picked K up from school, it got even worse. He just went from one thing to the next....he wasn't happy.
As frustrating as it is for me, it breaks my heart to see him so frustrated and upset. And more than that, I HATE that NOTHING I tried helped....not one bit. As a mom, that is an awful feeling.....awful. I feel like it's crazy cycle in our house and I feel like I never, ever get a "down" moment. It's the way it is and I get that but that doesn't mean that there are moments that I want to run away screaming.
Tomorrow starts his evaluations with the school district......hoping that it goes well.
Lots of love and hugs to you Cori!! God has blessed you with three wonderful children with many extra needs! We all are given struggles, but God knows that you are strong!! I pray for you tonight, hoping that tomorrow is a new day with some successes, even if they are small ones! Stay strong girl!!
ReplyDeleteSometimes they just need a hug or a good cry, you tried and you always will try, but until he matures, his feelings will be in control. Until he understands alot of things better all he has are limitless emotions that get overloaded really easy sometimes. He will always be sensitive but he will learn and so will you, I have learned it always sounds worse than it is because as the mom you just want them to feel good. I believe there are lots of coping skills for Dylan and yourself from the school, go to all the classes they offer, all the classes the teachers go to also. Observe the teachers work with the children and copy them!! As simple as "First this, then that" saved my life sometimes;) Good luck cuz!
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