Some frustration, some positive and some sweet....

Last night was D's last night of the med that we were trying........and while I am glad that we are done with that medication, I am also realizing that even with all the "bad" that came along with it, there clearly was some positive.  Not nearly enough for us to even think about putting him back on it but to say that the last few days have been challenging would be an understatement.  I feel like he has no control what-so-ever right now and it's testing my patience to no end.  Add to that me not feeling well and today has not been a great day....for either one of us.

I am trying so incredibly hard to keep my cool because I know that me losing my cool is NOT going to help one bit and will ultimately only make things worse but it.is.hard.  He seems to know what buttons to push and just how hard he can push.

A positive though.....

This weekend while we were in Iowa, I was able to figure out a couple more "signs" that he is getting over stimulated and needs a break.  Believe me, it takes awhile to get him back on track but I think that as we figure things out a bit more it will be a good thing for him and also for us.

What did I figure out?

Well, as he's getting closer and closer to the max of what he can handle with noise, commotion, disruption of his routines, his ears and cheeks get redder and redder and he starts pacing........reminded me of a caged animal to be honest.  One of the times it happened, J took him downstairs where it was quiet and another time I took him back to a bedroom and we snuggled for a bit.  It was rather amazing to me to be able to really watch him while we were out of the commotion.....his whole body changed.  I could just see him relaxing and his mood changed before my eyes.

These are things that are taking awhile but we are slowly figuring out his cues, even when he can't.

One very sweet moment this weekend with him was during the Easter Egg Hunt that he was soooo excited about doing, I might add.  Whenever he found a pink egg, he would run to wherever Eva was and give it to her.  When I asked him why he was giving her the eggs, he said, "Mommy, pink is her favorite color don't you know!"

Man, I just love my boy!!!