I know this is how it goes.....

But I cannot even put into words how frustrating I am finding things lately.

Just when I dare think that things are "evening out" and getting easier, we have a couple of days like we have had yesterday and today and it's a smack back to reality.

I really thought that things were getting easier with Dylan and we were seeing a more consistent, positive behavior pattern.  I know that this isn't a sprint.....it's more like a long distant journey with hills and valleys.  I get that but it's so frustrating.

Dylan has been very defiant the last couple of days and very in everyone's space and face.  It's been challenging at home and it's been challenging at home.  I feel very much at a loss right now as to what to do.

I feel like I am in a constant state of trying to figure out what triggers what behaviors and right now, I feel like that's looking for a needle in a haystack.

Don't get me wrong.....we have seen some great changes since starting the Risperdal with him and I am so very thankful for that.

Tomorrow is a new day.